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Post  Hugo on Wed Jul 31, 2013 12:50 am

Hugo was in high spirits. It had been a few days without Silvia, and now he was gonna see her. There was a good mission, a good party, good company, good food.. Vacation was great. If it wasn't for this naggling worry about his, their, uh, this... relationship. But it was gonna be fine.

He was humming the melody of a song, grinning a little as he went back to the familiar suite that he and Silvia had inhabited just a week before. it seemed like a long time ago. He threw his muletech of swag onto the couch and sat down at the table of the 'kitchen'. he punched in an order and smeakered to Silvia privately. "Hey, picarita, you around? I'm back in the room."
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Post  Silvia Tsukuda on Wed Jul 31, 2013 1:02 am

I'm just on my way, she smeakered back, emerging from a lift into a corridor only a few turns away from the rooms she was once again sharing with Hugo. I'll be with you in a couple of minutes. Did you guys have fun without me? she added, smiling - she had read the debriefing, she knew roughly what had been happening, but she wanted to hear Hugo's take on it, if only over smeaker.
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Post  Hugo on Wed Jul 31, 2013 1:14 am

"Tons. Little break in, weird fucking shit--I'll show you the pictures. I'm ordering food. Do you want anything? I'm ordering food." He seemed happy and pressed in a few orders. There was no hesitation to his voice, though if Silvia could have seen him in real life, she would have noticed his fingers were tapping out a fast rhythm on the marble counter.
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Post  Silvia Tsukuda on Wed Jul 31, 2013 1:18 am

Silly question, Silvia replied with a chuckle audible even over smeaker. We're all always hungry, remember? Too many cybernetics, and all that. Okay, I'm here. She picked up her pace slightly, strides lengthening as she made her way towards the suite and waved her ID chip in front of the scanner to open the door.
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Post  Hugo on Wed Jul 31, 2013 1:25 am

"Good point. What was it you liked at the hotel...? Oh. Oh. Hello, querida. Was it the chicken thing, or..?" He smiled a bit apologetically, gesturing with his other hand to the robot chef. He looked nice, but his own personal style tended to be combat clothes, work out clothes, or an outfit that wouldn't look out of place in an EI club. He looked like that, now, with a blue shirt and darker blue dress slacks, and shoes with gold heels. His fingers were still tapping a pattern on the counter.
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Post  Silvia Tsukuda on Wed Jul 31, 2013 1:39 am

Silvia nodded, taking a moment to take in Hugo. Her own outfit was exactly what you'd expect to see on her - combat gear that left her arms bare with her hair loosely tied behind her head. She was smiling - a sight that had been more common of late - and the smile widened at the sight of Hugo.

"Yeah, that was it. The...chicken thing. Whatever it was called." She shrugged, slightly apologetic. "I've kind of...forgotten the name already." She took a step inside, letting the door close, and her gaze focused on his fingers, trying to work out the tune he was tapping.
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Post  Hugo on Wed Jul 31, 2013 1:50 am

"I'll just get like, the first dozen under chicken, then." He tapped a few things. Despite her perceptive eyes, she couldn't tell what he was tapping; there was something frantic and arhythmic about it, and it continued even when his other hand eyes were doing something else. He turned back to her with a smile. "Maybe they'll have the melon things that Mikhail did. Way too many people on that island for you, picarita, but the food, motherfucker, the EI know how to do it big. What did you do when we were off stealing stuff?"

He began to take out and spread some dishes around, along with a few drinks. He was still asking mostly relaxed, but when he got a fork he continued tapping softly with it on the counter. He was giving her a little bit of a weird look.
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Post  Silvia Tsukuda on Wed Jul 31, 2013 1:57 am

Silvia chuckled at Hugo's food order and moved over to help move the dishes, gaze still distractedly following his fingers. "Good to hear they do something right. And me? I was sketching, mostly." She shook her head at the memories of the Varstaag landscapes. "I mean...this place has some of the best views I've ever come across. I couldn't just ignore them, could I? I'll have to show you the results," she added, brightening. "I'm quite proud of some of them. I mean, there's nothing incredible in there, but I think it's pretty good, in general."
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Post  Hugo on Wed Jul 31, 2013 2:06 am

"Oh good, we can both exchange pictures." He chuckled dumbly, voice a little thick. He began to pass some dishes over, shaking his head no after having a bite from each one. "No, no, not really. None of these look right. They don't taste right either."

He continued giving Silvia a strange look, after after a few more experimental bites, spoke again. His voice was kind of soft. "Keep that one, with the red stuff. Don't know what it is, but it's good. ..Hey, so.. Are we.. ..I mean.. ..What are we? I mean.. what do you think we are?" He winced as he realized how bad it sounded, and raised his hands in a placatory way. "I mean, I don't mean, you know.. I just... Coraline said you thought we were, or wanted to be... ...exclusive..?"
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Post  Silvia Tsukuda on Wed Jul 31, 2013 2:17 am

Silvia was just taking a mouthful of the chicken with red sauce as Hugo asked his question, and she turned a quizzical look on him as she swallowed. "Er...what do you mean? Us as...as a couple, you mean? I mean...Coraline had pretty much asked me to date her and I had said I...might be interested." She was talking slowly, the smile disappearing from her face as she carefully put the chicken down. "And then I said we should stop because of you and me, once we...after Jerusalem. So if that's what you mean, then...yes, we are." She sounded puzzled now, as though this wasn't something that needed to be said.
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Post  Hugo on Wed Jul 31, 2013 2:24 am

Hugo's face clouded a little bit, confused. "..Oh.. Oh. Because.. I.. didn't think were. Because with me, and Una, and Alessandro, I just thought we agreed not to not date. Er." He looked a bit awkward now, unsure of what to do with her response. He cleared his throat and tried again. "Because, when I called you from Alessandro's I thought that was me being, er, well, an asshole but also me saying I didn't want to keep being.. flirty and kind of sort of not dating you, and then after the--in Jerusalem, I thought that was us saying that I, or at least, me saying that I liked you, and wanted to not not date you anymore. Er." He stopped there, aware he was sounding.. confusing.
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Post  Silvia Tsukuda on Wed Jul 31, 2013 2:35 am

Silvia blinked, trying to figure out exactly what Hugo was on about, and her expression shifted to one of confusion. "So..." she said slowly, a note of tension clear in her voice. "Where exactly do you think we are? And...what exactly does...Alessandro have to do with this? Wasn't he that other nuke you were doing some...gun stuff with?" She sounded rather more unsure on that, as though she were having trouble recalling exactly who Hugo's European friend was. The tension was still there, though, and was beginning to turn into something that sounded rather like suspicion.
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Post  Hugo on Wed Jul 31, 2013 2:41 am

"Er, yes. My friend in Eden Spire. My nuke friend. And we.. and our girlfriends.. All four of us... Together. I mean, we're not dating dating, but we have been hooking up off and on for months. I mean, I did tell you we were fucking. ..Twice." He was wincing as he remembered Fenris' voice in his head. This conversation was going downhill fast, but he couldn't help but sound reproachful. How many times did he need to go over this? "And I told you, I.. I like you. And you're important to me and I want to spend time with you, and... I don't know, I never really.. thought about it. We're just.. doing things." His voice lacked conviction at the end, as he became increasingly worried of Silvia's reaction.
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Post  Silvia Tsukuda on Wed Jul 31, 2013 2:57 am

Silvia's hands both clenched into fists, and Hugo could see the skin on her arms twitching slightly - the skin over her spines. "No," she said, in a voice that was suddenly quieter and a lot more strained. "You didn't tell me that. You didn't tell me you were going and fucking someone else. You know, instead of this relationship you never really thought about. So how many others have there been? Or is it just him?" By now, she was practically glaring at Hugo, a few of the spines on her shoulders emerging from the skin.
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Post  Hugo on Wed Jul 31, 2013 3:05 am

"Yes. I did." Hugo sounded frustrated, but mostly just looked.. completely baffled. The fact she felt upset enough to get all.. spiney was just weird as hell. What the hell? "Two times. I mean, not exactly in those words, but I did. It's not like I was hiding it. And it's not 'someone else', Silvia, because we've never had sex. But no, I haven't fucked anyone else. ..Besides Diedre, but you knew about her." He took a deep breath, trying to calm himself down. The more he spoke, the more angry he could feel himself getting. His jovial expression was gone, replaced with a combat-serious one. He dropped his fork on the side of one of the plates. "And that's everyone I've slept with since I joined Oracle. Do you want a full list of everyone I've kissed? Everyone I've hugged, too?"

Despite his attempts to relax, he couldn't keep the annoyance from his voice. He might have even sounded incredulous.
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Post  Silvia Tsukuda on Wed Jul 31, 2013 10:28 pm

By now, Silvia's spines were fully extended and bristling, just a slight twitch away from firing. Her stance was clearly recognisable as her combat stance and her fingers were clenching and unclenching.

"No, no, you don't need to give me a list," she said, bitterness and sarcasm colouring her tone. "I get the idea perfectly well, thank you. You know, you not being able to control yourself and your cock around anyone else who has an obsession with their gun. Did you even think about how it might feel?" she finished, accusingly, glaring at Hugo.
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Post  Hugo on Wed Jul 31, 2013 11:15 pm

Hugo stared at Silvia. His eyes were wide, and his raised his hands in disbelief. After a long second, he exhaled. His struggle to remain calm was obvious in his voice. "Are you kidding me? Are you motherfucking KIDDING me?" He jumped off his chair, getting to his feet. His hands moved in frustration in the air. "I'm not a fucking psychic, and more motherfucking importantly, what the motherfuck do you want me to DO, Silvia? You're the one that said sex wasn't important to you! You never fucking act interested. The closest you ever came was telling me you were 'fine' with the idea of us being together. You know, at first I thought it was just some coy Shogun clone way of saying that you wanted me, but oh, ha ha," And he actually laughed here, a bit bitterly, before continuing, one hand fanning his face in faux amusement while his words became more bitter. "No, of motherfucking course not. I don't mind not fucking you, but not fucking anyone else? That's too fucking much." He slammed his hand down on the counter, causing the marble to crack. He ignored it.
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Post  Silvia Tsukuda on Wed Jul 31, 2013 11:56 pm

Silvia's glare didn't lessen and, perhaps surprisingly, she didn't flinch, merely tensing slightly, her spines quivering. "You know," she said, her voice losing some of its control, "if you wanted sex, maybe you should have fucking asked! I mean, were you expecting me to come and service you every night?" By now, any sense of control was gone from her voice and she was speaking with a scorn that Hugo had never heard before from her. "But no, instead you go charging off and start getting it on with the first nuke who crosses your path."

She took a breath, still glaring furiously at Hugo and not moving from her stance. "You know, at least Ken'ichi respected me enough to actually stay faithful. Seems like he's the only fucking man who did."
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Post  Hugo on Thu Aug 01, 2013 12:14 am

There was silence for a moment. Hugo shook his head slightly as if he'd been struck, and then took a step back. His eyes finally left hers. Under the toughskin and stealth skin, she could see his face suddenly pale. His hands dropped to his sides. It took him a moment to speak, but when he did, his voice was quiet through gritted teeth. "Yeah, okay. Sure." He took a deep breath and turned away, already moving across the room to grab Una and his bag. "It's my fault. It's not like we discussed this before. It's not like the guy whose scared of doing, doing stuff to you do don't want would wait for his recently fucking tortured girl to make the first move, yeah, sure. My fucking bad."

He slung Una and her holster onto his back, picking up his back with one hand. "You can keep Ken'ichi. I can't compete with him anyway." His back was turned to her, heading for the door at speed.
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Post  Silvia Tsukuda on Thu Aug 01, 2013 12:38 am

"You know what? All you had to do was ask!" Silvia didn't care that Hugo was leaving - she was going to keep shouting at him. "Sure, be careful, but don't think that the best way to solve it is to go behind my fucking back and jump into bed with every nuke who offers themselves up! Try, you know, talking to me, like when we decided that the two of us would be fine having sex - or did you forget that bit?" Once again, she paused for breath, watching Hugo's retreating figure but still not relaxing, unable to quite stop tears emerging from her eyes.

"That's right!" she managed, an audible catch in her voice. "You go, understand? You just fucking leave!"
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Post  Hugo on Thu Aug 01, 2013 1:01 am

Hugo stopped at the door, his shoulders tensing as Silvia's language changed and her distress was clearly audible in her voice. Even without seeing his face, she could tell he was upset. He turned enough so that a sliver of his face was visible. He still looked upset, eyes still not able to meet hers. He didn't even sound angry now, just... quiet. "Do you mean that?"
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Post  Silvia Tsukuda on Thu Aug 01, 2013 1:15 am

Silvia was silent for a moment, her hands clenching and unclenching and her face, tears starting to appear in earnest now, staring towards Hugo. After a moment of silence, her spines slowly settled back into her arms.

"I don't know," she said, her voice suddenly a lot quieter. "I...I don't know what to think."
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Post  Hugo on Thu Aug 01, 2013 2:00 am

Hugo kept his face mostly turned away, eyes on the ground. He was still in the doorway, a step away from leaving. It took him a moment to collect all his thoughts. "I've fucked a lot of people. A lot of them. And almost all of them in the time of your.. dry spell. I mean.. Mostly nukes, but normal people, other agents, men, women, models, musicians, weltball players, even a depersonalized person." He wasn't bragging and he didn't sound apologetic. He spoke softly and plainly, as if he was stating facts. "It's one of the only things that makes me feel.. better. Makes me forget how twisted up I feel sometimes. I need it.. ...It can make me feel a lot worse, too. I can.. lose control. For.. the past couple of years, I've only been doing it with people who can take it. Not just physically but people who can.. stop me. Who are strong.. mentally."

He reached out and touched the door frame in an absentminded way. His hands were shaking the tiniest amount, but if anyone would notice, Silvia would. "And even then, of all the people I fucked, or.. even dated.. I didn't care about them like I care about you. Even Una, I..." His hand reached to touch his gun for comfort, his hand moving from the door to her muzzle. "I don't know why that's not enough for you. Sometimes it's too much for me. This is why I don't.. do people. They hurt you worse than a plasma canon. Make you feel all rotten and mushy inside. Sometimes it never gets better."

It was a long speech, done in a quiet voice. Parts of it more fast and lucid than others, as if he'd be thinking about some of it for a long time. He seemed to realize now that he had been talking for a while, and he drew his fingertips along Una's shell. It was his classic thinking/anxious behavior.
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Post  Silvia Tsukuda on Thu Aug 01, 2013 11:42 pm

As Hugo was talking, Silvia walked tentatively over to the table and sat, almost collapsing into a chair. There were still tears making their way down her cheeks, but her expression seemed to have stabilised somewhat, even if it had stabilised somewhere between anguish and despair. She was listening to what Hugo was saying, though, shaking her head and wiping her eyes.

"Hugo, I...I know you care. Really. It's just that...something like this...it kind of makes me feel like you don't," she tried, even more haltingly than normal. "I mean...you're just...going out and offering people a...a kind of intimacy that I just don't get with you." There was an edge of disappointed sorrow there, despite her best efforts. "It feels like...like you're holding things back from me and giving them to others. When I should be the...the first one you come to. And it probably doesn't help that it's with a nuke, too," she added, sniffing noisily. "I mean...because they have something I can't have, never mind how hard I try. So then, it feels like that's the thing that's important to you." She hesitated for a moment to rub her hands over her cheeks again, trying to get rid of the persistent tears and wondering how much more to say.

"And there...there are other reasons. Bad memories. I...I never told you about Carlos, and I...probably should have. A...a guy I knew in the Free States. Dated. For a while." Her voice was more distant now, and there was a kind of dull pain in her tone. "But he...he wasn't really interested in me. Just...just in the sex. And then he was also cheating on me, with...several people. So for you to...you know...it kind of stirs up...bad memories."

She sighed, and placed her head in her hands, hiding her face from Hugo. "I'm sorry...maybe I...I overreacted. It...it just...wasn't good for me. I shouldn't have just...assumed..."
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Post  Hugo on Fri Aug 02, 2013 1:05 am

"Yes, you could have talked to me about it, instead of deciding we were something without even asking." He sounded a little bitter, but in a resigned sort of way. He looked at Silvia now. Hurt was plain on his face.  His body turned to face her, but seemed unwilling to completely leave the door. "And after everything..." He waved a hand to encompass part of the room and then himself. "You feel like I don't care about you?"

His face darkened a little bit, the wounded look getting deeper. He continued before she had a chance to answer his mostly rhetorical question. "I.. Probably would have slept with Alessandro when I had seen him again. But I haven't seen him since Fenris' mission in Eden Spire... I've been with you the whole time, since Jerusalem." His dark eyes looked away. "It's not like I just fuck the first person I see. I only want to fuck people who are sexy and strong and nice who I want to make feel good. Alessandro's not just.. some other person. He's the only galvanic nuke I've ever met. We've trained together. He's.. generous, and charming, he listens and.. nice to me." For a second a smile fluttered on his lips, but was quickly replaced with the same hollow, hurt expression. "Why would you say mean things about him? It's not like I want to fuck you and can't so I go somewhere else." He shook his head as if he didn't exactly want to hear the answer, seemingly ignoring the heaps of terrible, hurtful, horrible things she said about him just moments before. "If you wanted to actually do things with me, why wouldn't you ask me? Or do.. anything? At all? I don't want to ask you for something you're not interested in, or..worse, pressure you into... ..it's why I told you I only do things with people who.. who initiate it."
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